That was busy for 2 months, mostly full of communication. Communication by words causes obstacles to keep in touch with creative silent part. Now I am back to art projects, having a small pause before the start.

Transition from one mind sate into another is the same as transition from one place into another, or from one job to another one. It needs to make a pause in mind to calm thoughts, to make conclusion what`s going on and how it concerns the life you want to live.

I made my pause.

To gain a special mind state I use the ancient process of prepare the Ink, from Chinese calligraphy traditions. Traditionally it needs to make about 50-100 turns of the ink stick on the ink stone, with water, to prepare the ink to work. I make less, just keep my feeling how the ink stick becomes into viscid black liquid.

Then I started.

it is one of the most effective technique to paint own state, current or preferent, it depends of your wish. Drawing, painting and similar things is the straight 2 sides road to our subconsciousness. That`s why people have different handwriting which can show some information about personality.

Usually I have no plan for such drawings, just an impulse of general idea. That`s why I am curious by myself what it will be.

That one can be a good source to analysis. It show a nesessity to make step back, have a pause and to meditate for a while, letting things go on.

Among different clothes from different parts of the world I feel Indian saree the best to relaxation. When 6 m of fabric winds around the body it makes psychological and physical limitations to body movements.

Athmosphere around is significant also. If you feel badly or sadness or weak, your hand will paint clouds and other dark formations around the figure. This is the way to realize what do you feel deeply inside and may be intensity of the stress. This is the one technique, self-exploration.

Another one I used that case was to make new state, more prefer, and link it to the current mood. That`s why I painted sun and clear sea waters around.

I am experienced in such transformations so made several texts to fix prefer mood and remind myself what it`s need.

A friend of mine told me about cooking on low fire, also about slow movements. It was the key  to describe what`s going on.

It seems, the time of fire-like actions has finished now. It needs new mind state, slow gentle movements, low fire actions and waiting.

If you use such techniques of programming or deprogramming, you should found somebody who can tell you in simple words something different from your current state. If you feel that words significant, it can be a modulator, a transition wave from current state to another one. Such brain function are common for every human being so it is ready to apply it to own life. May be once you will be lucky to archieve true words from existence around, which people occasionally drop. Such words can be your road signs. That`s the technique to work with, just try it.

And after all, here is my result:

WE know what`s it to feel free and actualize yourselve in natural way. But sometimes life itself requires from us abother behaviour, such as to overcome obstacles or obey orders no matter ready we for it or not. Something happens, world turns and then our freedom to do what we feel right seems ruined.

This is the flat understanding for those who know just two marginal positions: an absolute anarchy or dictatorship. Such way we loose the essence of evolution and movement from yesterday to tomorrow, because the process itself not so simple. Just to have a glance to it!

From the beginning everyone wants to live in own world doing just own business or doing nothing. Everyone expect the whole world turns to serve one`s feelings and save in the best way, so it seems as an ideal desired system for living. It seems right…

But actually it is wrong, absolutely wrong!

Because nothing could be stopped. Even if you have the desired world for a long time you became boring even about it`s perfection. So yesterday perfect world became unperfect next day, so changes will come.

Life changes and requests comes unwillingly and friquently seems not in our best time. For example I was ordered to learn violine in 5 years old, it was worse then Paganini has, and actually I didn`t like it, but something in me, inside, was recognized and so life (by hands of my mom and professionals claimed my absolute ears) made me to learn it. I wasn`t ready, but my brain was. So it was 9 years of training every day, train left hand to feel positions, feel memory to remember long concerts, train fingers for quickly punctual movements (because in violin 1 mm in fongers position means different thone), and also train everything works together to make music.

I wasn`t happy tht period just because I desired to paint. Because I feel painting or sculpture shapes in total before I do it, feel integrtive and absolutely free creative  that way. But music wasn`t integrative, it was just sound by sound wrote by somebody else, not me, so I felt myself prisoned to it. Nevetheless I used to be a good violin player being totally depressed the same time. I think it helps because violing is an ideal instrument to crying so it was correct.

Lets be back to think about the process!

After an obey heriod people have more rights and more possibilities and more resourses, so they begin to create desired world. They make home full of plesant things, with all comfort and people they loved. That time seems very close to the first dream about the ideal world, so we could ask why it not so stable, why life wants from us that and that and let us so small time to enjoy our new built paradise?

The answer is clear. When you comes to your stability, the best to feelings, you have a wish to freeze it. But if something not getting better, not changed, it started to get wrong. Like an isolated lake turnes to swamp with small changes in environment. So as we are prepared with our education, life experience, resourses and place for recovery, life starts to invite us to a new tasks.

But such invitation typically isn`t so  hard and fast as the previous time. Because that time life wants us to use our best for a mission with will.

That time we have to make a choice. To turn out of life and make own small busines as usual. That way we started to obey own inertia, also fears and weaknesses. So life could repeat the invitation harder later and so it will be the same obey but to opposite side, wich made us down to the first child position: internal resistance, external obey and so not very effective life.

Another strategy is for such souls which growth adult and could make wise decisions. That way we started to learn more about the new mission life invited us, started to be check our muscles is it ready to new attempts.

That time we needs to be sure in our abilities to act and concentrate to own resourses, making an inspection to reveal who we really are and what we actually have.

That way we could realize our muscles getting weak and needs some training. But with active position it`s not a strict order to obey, but our own will to make more.

Also such time required to put our customs of pleasures into another order. Some of them, being still attractive, should be put into background. That time you could need something else which supports your concentration to the mission.

...And then you will accept everything, being active, being free. That way people gowth to another targets and turnes the world, making changes, being consciously involved.

So you became the co-author of God instead of a lazy, scared person who can be just a slave.

This is the choice everyone make in life, sometimes small choice with small changes; sometimes a big one.

Although our muscles will pain, this is not right criteria to understand what happens. The right is to be vigilant is it turnes constructive changes, or destructive.

So this is pictures narrates the process of changes in life and our decisions how to act or not act with it.

Everyone know how  important it is to be involve in joyful play. Everything comes easily that way, consciousness and subconsciousness works together and so unexpectable perfection could gains. But more interesting question is how to work with pleasure the same way, being serious and joyful one time.

Just to have a glance to a play. It comes irregularly, may be with gaps, and it stops when you feel boring or tired or for no reason. If you like to stop you are free to quit a game so feelings of freadom covers the situation itself. That was nature prepares young to increase skills when they have a time. Look to kittens or tiger kids - it will be the same. And everything seems under control of a playing person.

Looks how people playes being totally involved and you can see how their resourses increase all parameters to the game. Resourses comes from nothing and develop every person who have a courage to be involved in the game with all heart desire. That picture I drew why thinking about the differencies between free participation and strictions of a duty, just in one field of activity. (According natal astrology chart I have Mars in his best position in Water, Scorpio, that`s why here it is playful mood and also power to act. Although this is a passion and real swords and ability and will to be in battle, it is not so serious and have no external planing.)

Another picture about the same subject. I realized how it`s important to be informal when I pictured a bannle helmet laying aside.

Now let`s focuse on the differencies being on Duty. The same situation, somebody ready to battle, but everything changes. Clothes, hair, uniform and standard weapon, even a tidy breakfest in the hand - everything turnes playful mood into formal borders. It is obvious here it is a rule which governs every action. So this is not a game.

The question is how to make a kind of living union between our gorgeour resourses of subconsciousness and ligical needs to work in group with planing, also to obey orders and feel no loss power under it.

Such dilemma between two sides of life had never been resolved in total. But in dynamics, in movement it could be a kind of partnership between joy and duty, because in deep base level this is no contrarities in our world. The question is how to found it, then - how to gain, and then how to hold it, being vigilant to situation, being in consciousness, being perfect professional in any field.

One of the most powerful desire for everyone is to gain strength, and in archetypes of Tarot system we could found that symbol en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Strength_(Tarot_card)  . This is the final stage of the process of gaining so I would like to have a glance to such process in stages.

First of all, if you meet own strength, or strength of anothers, you could be frightened of it just because this is something you can`t control.Then we need to make next step and to do something by ourselves, to mke an attempt…We ll start from unexpectable things happens…

Then once we realize ourselves confident inside such speed, and this is the chance to gain the best result.

This is not one but several attempts and adventures to understand yourselves qualities and what the Strength means. This is a long way in dunes during which we started to know our instruments well, to learn our limits and possibilities and to keep in touch with the Strength. So it wil be a kind of sympathy growthed into friendship and partnership. This is the middle stage to gain Strength.

The last point is to put all things in right sequence. Who is the leader, who is the follower; who could make planing and targeting and who should wait and then to actualize planing. And of course keep a kind op joyful, positive balance between two sides. This is the real Strength with which possibilities growth and future deeds will blossomed. So the final stage is the result of anothers, and we need to recall all of it.

In many traditions, religions and symbolic systems exist a character names The Fool. In Tarot system he exists too en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Fool_(Tarot_card) and that time I would like to pay attention to it.

The Fool is the spirit in search of life experience, trying everything new without an idea abour risks and prise. Sometimes he seems like a child, sometimes as a mad man, and keeps a kind of wisdom too. When we focuse how it is going on our life we can see several possibilities here. First of all The Fool is somebody make mental power aside, al least as a temporary decision.

It means borders of possible becames wider, traditional ways doesn`t govern and hears flutters free in the streams of changes, following the wind.

Traditionally The Fool appears relaxible as a kitten, with playful mood, but it doesn`t cover the situations I want to focus. My Fool is the one who feel the target, unvisible to anothers, and he have spirit of asperetion, trying to make the last impulse to gain the aim.

This is the kind of courage - to make the last impulse and don`t allow yourself to delay. Many people made attemots for a long time but as they feel the target is near they feel a kind of procrastination and then lose the impulse of changes. But the Fool never do it. All of his passion deducate to the target and when he feel it in one step he do his best without any doubts like a sprinter make the last movement to the win.

It is important to crown your atempts with the final result. Despite of tideness, feeling of delay or anxiety to focused all passion and gain it in one powerful movement, and so to make something not only planed but realized.

The border between class study and real life is natural. Sometimes pupil the best inside class fail to keep their position in real life. And vice versa.

This is not something so hard to perform but something we should understand how to and perform our best that way. What is the main thing made differencies between a classroom and the life field? This is targeting. In classrooms a teacher make aims and algorithms how to gain it. Of course such aims are simplified but it`s not the main difference. The main is the process itself: teacher is somebody else and as he/she made us the target it`s not our target but something a little bit artificial. That way we could lost something important such as connection between living achievement and it`s simple models.

Several times when I practiced archery I was told how important is to feel the hand, to make a bow like a part of your brain and then to catch the target by eyes. And then to feel an attraction from the target. Hands, bow and eyes are the one system then.

Such way a target comes into the mind and become own so this is the real life thing to gain. So we are dial with the skill of a classroom and skill needs to gain in reality. But it is not the last point, because in class we have a static situation, but in real life it is not so. IN reality everything changing, new things appears, old disappears, you could just to finish your strategy and then realize it`s not actual.

So we need a new skill - to be flexible enough to catch how situation changes and to be one step before it.

All equipment must be very good selected and fits to your hand, mind etc. Also you should keep in touch with a partner before the mission will start. So you gain mutual trust and understanding to hold your target independently in changing world. Not just to react but to predict it.

...and you will win that way!

Writing that notes I realized my bow stuck behind the door, forgotten, and I remember my intention to make a shooting-range here at home because I have no time to go to an archery club. But being under the pressure of another important tasks and plans I could just to notice it in hope to do it in right time.

That picture continues previous about Heart Desire. What happens if you found a way to develop your dream?

Are you ready to it? Becuse many people just want to touch their dream and then jump back, to the calm well known routine. Becausr it is the risk to develop your dream. Like Bilbo Baggins ("The Hobbit"  en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Hobbit ) have just one step ot the road and then the Adventure started, like you could overcome your natural habits and limits just trying to realize a dream. Sometimes people use dreams as a moon in a window - a thing pleasant to have sometwhere far away, but who wants Moon dropped to your bed? But anothers people realized the driving force, huge motivation power to actualize themselves when they make staps towards realization. And that times this is important to find somebody else.

Dream-develop partner is the bless bacause such way you will be less destructive and more sure in things doing and how it will be growth in natural way.

Just try it! Abandon worries, scratches, miss, and how uncomfortable you could feel yourself in new role.

Try it, because this is the best time and perfect place in presence of Universe, being in partnership as it should be.

Everyone knows what is it - a heart desire, sometimes strange, unusual, may be a little bit scaring for a person or for people around… A dream is laying inside until time it arise like first flowers from snow.

Dreams growth not in vacuum but in surrounding, so as you see somebody free, actualizing his/her dreams, it could be the example for you just to try. What qualities should you have to do the same? First is lively interest and curiosity what happens and how it fits to your interests, knowledge and skills. May be you realise your skills about zero but don`t fear about, it will grows as far as you keep your dream.

Driving power of the real example from a person who have the practice of things you dream is so important so you should have your eyes wide open to check who has the same desire here, hopes not far away. Just keep your efforts to have a glance out of narrow world inside - to the wide world outside things you accustom.

Feel free to be active but also careful, observe what happens as attentively as you can. May be you once realize a key thing and then it will make your efforts more brave.

Trying inside your world be careful, because typically dreams are much more wide then the born place so something could be broken. But this is the price of the chance to try your dream and growth more, more that strange, blessed way.

Since Wilhelm Reich  en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wilhelm_Reich psychologists know how internal and external problems form the muscles shield over the body and also internal protection too. Such armours keeps a person from stress and helps to handle pains but the more effective armours is the less lively human could be.

While a person support own armours he/she could be effective in the brunch chosen, but with time efficiency and potency comes down, reactions stabilizes in narrow diapason and then it will be a kind of rigid to the body and a kind of spiritual death to the soul. Because human have no task to be the effective robot, but to be more and growth possibilities into divine position of knowledge and power.

It means our shields and armours, so effective in the short run, becames our chains in the long run way. So we all need to recognize it existant and then to make a choice how to live. This is only two ways. One is to remain armours ans stop any changes, this is to weak people. But for strong ones, who still are ready to growth and self development, still want to expand their role to the world and still have their potentials this is the second way - to be brave enough to take armours away.

This is not an easy thing and of course needs perfect timing. If you take away your armors in wrong time it will be crash of plans, processes and sometimes even bones. If you take away armours without attention to the order it may be the case you will be totally naked in the main positions and armored in unimportant. So your reactions could be uncorrect. Also as armours still has it`s function it is important to make everything smartly and put armours with honour and respect to a special place. Why not? Who knows, may be it could be a situation required your force so all instruments must be prepared and near.

It`s an interesting question what should be the first and the last in such process. That picture pointed on the case the chief position of the head so the helmet is the last thing to be out.

What is the sign the process is well done and correct? Feeling of freedom without exciting but with a kind of deep joy, like lighting spreads around. So you could see the process is healthy, in right order and perfectly in time.

Healthy, happy and perfectly in time then!