Well, I`ve problem with the new Chinese sword: whatever I do with it, long heavy clusters always knocked to my face and i have a great pity to my nose. Also i broke the movements and dance, i can`t deal with it. So I get it away and put red silk scarf instead. Everything becomes perfect, practise becames interesting, full of possibilities even to dance and no dangerous to my sideview. I want to resume: middle Chinese sword is the best companion to Korean dancing knifes to train movements in different way. Just don`t hesitate to get out unright details and try a new one! So i am going to finish my 2 new paintings, may be I`ll do it before 10 of Febriary Lunar year, Oh I would like so!

Yesterday I did one small crazy thing I put aside for a long time. I bought straight Chinese sword (training of course), middle size, just to have that experience how to operate it and what could be an unexpectable usage. 3 months ago I received another example from that family - a pare of Korean dancing knives. So it`s a good time to make summary about all collectibles.

First of all, I am not a collectioner and usually avoid expensive things just because of two reasons: first - I dont`like to feel enslaved by expensive things and prefer to be light and independant from it a part of my Buddhists practice. Second reason is the really perfect swords deserve masters to be an owner. I am just a student know this and that, investigating what new horizonts things keeps. So i require rom mine swords just to be authentic, beautiful and functional. Korean Dancing knifes ( a pare of short on the upper part of the picture below) have flexible holding to the handle with 3 metal disks, and 7 metal petals holds along the blade. This decoration make a cembalo sound which is good to make movement in rhitm (but a little bit noisy to my test so I ordered one more without petals). I hold 2 red clusters on the handles in order to have fine movement control, also it is beautiful. I like that knives and use it for dancing meditative practice.

My new Chinese sword is really light weight, actually too light weight (I suppose it is for TaiChi practice to a child). The blade is so thin so trembling on the top. But it is beautiful, have authentic view and at least useful to have new experience in movement. Tha point is it`s red clasters is too much long and heavy. I suppose it designed especially to student who have no care about his\her nose, so I need a time to think how to deal with it. May be I`ll cut it off! 8-)

I compare those swords with my old two. Wood training katana is about 90 cv long and pleasant to handle it, I use it to have a training with music. Although it is not weight (about 1 kg) it long enough to keep diafragma and feets strong and feel the energy while train it. Also the wood made it less interesting to witnesses and so suitable to use in our park (which keeps my crystal luster safe after I broke several things by bamboo stave).

The black sword is about 1 kg too, not so long but I like it because the metal is not too bad as usually and it have delighting fine curved blade.

So now i have everything to investigation or to simple exercises, it`s the time to stop with new ones and don`t be lazy to practise. Oh, this is the really hardest part of everything!

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Whan my work priority changes it is visible from one glance to my cabinet. In case something creative, unexpectable coming it`s a kind of mass, every new thing i put over previous - that time it` trening long sword and a shorter one over papers concerning institute etc.

If my cell phone is up it means i am waiting for a call, if i am not who knows where it could be and every time i need to make attempts to found it.

Today i works with another tasks so it was some facebook activity, and then i have reorganized the mass. Work will be near and i bring my tea ceremony complect together to my work place and moved swords another place (but visible as i plans to train it tonight)

IN compare with previous place state:

As you see the table was 30% longer and it was the place to put everything! And that`s more - to paint here being lazy to go to the studio:

So now i have a good order of things: a comfortable place and also it flexible to change needs directly to tasks I planned. I have here all equipments together from desktops and laptop to iPad and ebook, fax, portable tea set, and also music and aroma therapy lamp with lemongrass oil to think clear when I am tired, if I want trening sword is here, if I want rest the sofa is here too.

... Everything together and then I realized I am lazy to work!

Such an irony!

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I am happy to be back to my swords, moving with energy of music, feeling how galaxies pulse dep in heavens and earth carries my steps.

Even the collage picture is old, the spirit is the same.

Tonight i couldn`t sleep so did several sketches. When my brush meets ink something happens and so it was 3 pictures, from the sadness one of the beginning to happiness at the end. I`ll start from the last.

Actually when I did the one before last it was clear what will be the next. But when I did it the picture started to chenge from my first view. Hierarchy of ideas always remains but sometimes the message could be more complicated so i allow it to flow to see what it could actually be.

Just from the first stroke it wanted to live by own life so I allow it being curious what it will be the message and how it could connect with the previous three.

It was the same in general but very different with the details. It will be obvious when I publish all of it, but that time just the last.

It wasn`t the bottom of the universe as I expected. It was no bottom and no top but the energy flows here and there and hear flattering with the wind of time.

Thing i should remember, but always hard to recall.

The hightest advantage to be an artist is to ba able to transform everything into Art. Things usually unpleasant becames worth to exist that way, every experience became a new project. I`ve finished my first in 2013 AB painting, of course it was the twins but that time i did it separately.

What is the essence of waiting? I see here several issues. As you are agree and feel as a situation leads by something powerful, with all authority and keeps a constructive way, I agree - such waiting could be pleasant. But that painting represents the opposite side.

As you feel yourself prisoned by unperfect forces, not skilled and out of your control, but you have to be involved, feeling squizzed and frozen one time… What`s happens if it will be longer then you could overcome without aftermath? It consists of several points, from struggle with a superior power, then angrity, then it will be anxiety how to handle things belongs to you own competence, better as good as it possible. Then it comes to the cyclone low-pressure area. Everything becomes frozen that place.

In the eye of storm you do nothing, just to be here, waiting.

Waiting.

Waiting.

It seems quiet for the first glance. But if it goes on and on, until you will lost the sense of time.

This is the place of calm. But calm isn`t good for sailing-ship. Everything becames frozen. You can feel how your muscles becomes stone, your skin lost sensitivity, and hands couldn`t be operated.

That moment God have time to make transformations, like to reload a Matrix, not pleasant feeling because you remains conscioushess being stoned, but something is changing that way.

Something is borning just in time like a buterfly from it`s cocoon, and your duty that time to be quiet and don`t move and even more

- try to feel what really happens and how new world appears, just in one step, jut in one minute from yours.

 Late year has finished, but my own New Painting Year comes just in the time I turned ouf frames paintings from 2012. It was a special moment - a specific energy likes the signal to attack after too long waiting.

I realized it by wish to renewal, then founded instruments and teared out all old year painting from it`s frames. All of them now becomes into my Past and I am ready for Future, my hear flutters witj the wind of Future, I feel the congregation of new deeds waiting for me to be embodiment, i am ready to reise my power for the mission, waiting ended.

The new start has gained, I`ve finished the first new AB  painting and second and the third will come in a week.

Waiting is ended!

Bothering thoughts comes to my head if I can`t clearly understand what`s going to happen and how to act with it. Even if I cancel such thoughts, as the problem doesn`t resolved my brain works more and more, calculating…

It is not good to force yourself not to think, so I prefer to make the situation exterior by making Ink Sketch. Honestly said, that way I am tryng to drop it, from time to time I win then will found somethimg another to be bothered, anyway here it is the result of the therapy:

I suddenly realized how I need it -to feel the sword in my hands, to operate it. I tryed it inside my home but so careful that it wasn`t worth to. One time I was uncareful and damaged my crystal lamp on the ceiling. Today I went to our park with long wooden training sword "Katana" type in my hands and with player in my ears. It was thing I desired although I couldn`t did rich exercises or dancing because of people starring at me and warm clothes for minus 10 degree made my movements limited. It was exciting anyway, the only feeling of sword in my hands. So I describe it with several words:

White  snow sparkles

Frozen air, so clear,

Trembling with my breath

My right friend accompanies me

sword in my hands