Not very old but I have several paintings in classical technigue needs to finish. I think today is the best to do it.

Subj! I`ll make pictures tomorrow today.

P.S. I don`t want but should go to bad.

I listened that some people creates new things as a game, in playful mood as children. I know how to make the same mood, easy thing if everything is OK or it`s required by sosiety etc. But for me sometimes creation process is like an oxigen mask in airplane.

I create my own oxigen-bubble, small cocoon of fresh pure world among commonplace stagnant air of daily ideas, people, actions. Of

Changes, changes, changes… As Heraclitus said “No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man.”

Sometimes we can`t realize changes in people, especially in ourselves, as we growth elder having new scars. But enviromental changes of seasons we can see clearly. In September I saw from my 21-th floor window how morning mist covered lakes. In

Ancient Greecs created the myth about Apollo- the god of Art and 9 muses en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Muse inspired 9 main arts. This is the great idea to put together several kinds of art and claimed it as the branches of Art in general meaning. It was great to read about it in Ancient Greecs Gods, Heroes and Myths I had read in my childhood, actually my father`s book. Phylosophy is the Art.

Ok, I should to accept the fact autumn`s came and also accept less sun and clouds, more dark and rain. Feeling a little bit ill and want to sleep. Hopes new AB-twins will be finished next week.

Ok, I`ve started my new AB Twins paintings. Hoped to finish all base work tonight but now I`ve hands trembling so can`t make fine lines more. Also I`ve inbreathed the chemistry from painting matherials, kerosene etc, and now should open the windows and go to bad before I want to sing something unpleasant and awake all neighbours. Hopes I`ll finish the base tomorrow before I `ll go to yoga

What is a choice? One or two options is not, may be three, four?.. A choice construct a bridge from past (may be loveless) to future hopefully better. A choice isn`t a moment but a PROCESS.

Sometimes it`s sweet, but more frequently it`s a hardest work to change own past, own old habits and probably a sosiety`s customs too, and then to hold the position, making step by step from troubles to

Sometimes I feel time as a clossy honey. It flows unhurriedly and I stuck in it as a moquito in a peace of amber. I feel as I do nothing. I feel as I create nothing. Energy stream outside is sparse and flat, and feelings point it. Nevetherless I am nearly finishing of 3 new Graphics I`ll publish in nearest future. Tomorrow will be Management Club I lead for my students, it`ll be the subject of