It seems I overuse my body that month and no i am a little bit ill. Cold, less sleaping etc. Self-treatment wasn`t so helpful as I expected so I visited doctor yesterday. She prescribed me some new antibiotic and now I feel much more good. Anyway I must be ok in a couple days, no time to be ill just a minute to have a pause…

a pause in what? World never stops. River of time never be back. Just that time I see al future projects and what to do so clear, so detailed then barely sacrifase such vision just for sleeping.  Yesterday I created a new MindMap to my next project "How the World Turns", a big one, not only in arts. Because we all live in so strange times, in the time if changes and gustiness, and the world needs new possibilities in thinking, making decisions, providing processes. I made last MindMap in order to put in it knowledge I have and will learn from different fields of my education - from physics to management, from data analysis to arts, from meditation to self development and possibilities to recover from processes made us tired or loss.

Many fields of knowledge exists, many of them are so useful to optimize our everyday life, to actualize our desires and possibilities. YOu know, in a system all energy fixed. This is physical law and also Dr. Adizes postulated it for management. We needs all of our energy and then use it for our external growth. We shouldn`t lost our energy for small annoying things (but have a lot every day!). We don`t have to lost our energy making decisions without strong base helps us.  But useful information keeps too much time to organize.

Sometimes we have all knowledge but can`t use it because everything is in mass into our mind. Like Sherloc Holmes, we need to make right order to useful tools and to use it in right sequence in time.  That`s why I did the Mindmap How the World Turnes. Because now I investigete new area - neuroscience, so need to put everything in order to use it, not to store somewhere like cheap things from a sale. Then to organize it into useful model. I do it in collaboration with another professionals - biologist, chemical science, linguistic science. So I am not alone now with it, but as the started have to think clear about project at all. So… 

Ok, the post started from my health and then changed drastically to my work! My god! This is m diagnosis, not such decease. Could I have treatment to it, something new and effective like antibiotics I have? Who knows. I don`t want to stop. Because… Just try to feel it - a galaxy of knowledge flowers in my mind, many threads simultaneously, so beautiful, so exciting.

What thing could be compared with it? I can`t stop actually because I don`t want.

Thank you for being with me!

Well, I`ve problem with the new Chinese sword: whatever I do with it, long heavy clusters always knocked to my face and i have a great pity to my nose. Also i broke the movements and dance, i can`t deal with it. So I get it away and put red silk scarf instead. Everything becomes perfect, practise becames interesting, full of possibilities even to dance and no dangerous to my sideview. I want to resume: middle Chinese sword is the best companion to Korean dancing knifes to train movements in different way. Just don`t hesitate to get out unright details and try a new one! So i am going to finish my 2 new paintings, may be I`ll do it before 10 of Febriary Lunar year, Oh I would like so!

Yesterday I did one small crazy thing I put aside for a long time. I bought straight Chinese sword (training of course), middle size, just to have that experience how to operate it and what could be an unexpectable usage. 3 months ago I received another example from that family - a pare of Korean dancing knives. So it`s a good time to make summary about all collectibles.

First of all, I am not a collectioner and usually avoid expensive things just because of two reasons: first - I dont`like to feel enslaved by expensive things and prefer to be light and independant from it a part of my Buddhists practice. Second reason is the really perfect swords deserve masters to be an owner. I am just a student know this and that, investigating what new horizonts things keeps. So i require rom mine swords just to be authentic, beautiful and functional. Korean Dancing knifes ( a pare of short on the upper part of the picture below) have flexible holding to the handle with 3 metal disks, and 7 metal petals holds along the blade. This decoration make a cembalo sound which is good to make movement in rhitm (but a little bit noisy to my test so I ordered one more without petals). I hold 2 red clusters on the handles in order to have fine movement control, also it is beautiful. I like that knives and use it for dancing meditative practice.

My new Chinese sword is really light weight, actually too light weight (I suppose it is for TaiChi practice to a child). The blade is so thin so trembling on the top. But it is beautiful, have authentic view and at least useful to have new experience in movement. Tha point is it`s red clasters is too much long and heavy. I suppose it designed especially to student who have no care about his\her nose, so I need a time to think how to deal with it. May be I`ll cut it off! 8-)

I compare those swords with my old two. Wood training katana is about 90 cv long and pleasant to handle it, I use it to have a training with music. Although it is not weight (about 1 kg) it long enough to keep diafragma and feets strong and feel the energy while train it. Also the wood made it less interesting to witnesses and so suitable to use in our park (which keeps my crystal luster safe after I broke several things by bamboo stave).

The black sword is about 1 kg too, not so long but I like it because the metal is not too bad as usually and it have delighting fine curved blade.

So now i have everything to investigation or to simple exercises, it`s the time to stop with new ones and don`t be lazy to practise. Oh, this is the really hardest part of everything!

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Whan my work priority changes it is visible from one glance to my cabinet. In case something creative, unexpectable coming it`s a kind of mass, every new thing i put over previous - that time it` trening long sword and a shorter one over papers concerning institute etc.

If my cell phone is up it means i am waiting for a call, if i am not who knows where it could be and every time i need to make attempts to found it.

Today i works with another tasks so it was some facebook activity, and then i have reorganized the mass. Work will be near and i bring my tea ceremony complect together to my work place and moved swords another place (but visible as i plans to train it tonight)

IN compare with previous place state:

As you see the table was 30% longer and it was the place to put everything! And that`s more - to paint here being lazy to go to the studio:

So now i have a good order of things: a comfortable place and also it flexible to change needs directly to tasks I planned. I have here all equipments together from desktops and laptop to iPad and ebook, fax, portable tea set, and also music and aroma therapy lamp with lemongrass oil to think clear when I am tired, if I want trening sword is here, if I want rest the sofa is here too.

... Everything together and then I realized I am lazy to work!

Such an irony!

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I am happy to be back to my swords, moving with energy of music, feeling how galaxies pulse dep in heavens and earth carries my steps.

Even the collage picture is old, the spirit is the same.

I suddenly realized how I need it -to feel the sword in my hands, to operate it. I tryed it inside my home but so careful that it wasn`t worth to. One time I was uncareful and damaged my crystal lamp on the ceiling. Today I went to our park with long wooden training sword "Katana" type in my hands and with player in my ears. It was thing I desired although I couldn`t did rich exercises or dancing because of people starring at me and warm clothes for minus 10 degree made my movements limited. It was exciting anyway, the only feeling of sword in my hands. So I describe it with several words:

White  snow sparkles

Frozen air, so clear,

Trembling with my breath

My right friend accompanies me

sword in my hands

One of the best thing of my place is my windows vieew. From 21-th floor I can see far far away, being unattainable for everything, safe.

If it`s cold the sunrise is beautiful, with many shadows of pink rouge powdering sky. I like to starring to the sky because so beautiful colours here, so cristal clear, so fine, but I prefer not to see to the bottom. Snow and roads, white and wet black, in my feelings it`s the colours of death, colours of stopping everything, represents the order to sleep for a long time. That`s why I evaluate clean sky with clouds.

In everning time it could be beautiful too. Sky changes colours to deep violet, blue, deep pink and red. It`s about 10-15 minutes of beauty and then darkness coves everything.

As I learned violin since I was 5 yeas old it associated with not pleasant things. But today suddenly I opened my old-old violin`s box, took my old-bold bow and…

Suddenly I realized a strange thing: I missed it. I missed the violine and the bow and the sounds and the way it borns. However my left hand fingers doesn`t work poperly and many techngues seems lost it was a strong feeling of energy, additional to colours flow in painting. Right hand feels as an opeating manipulator, very sensitive, also strong. The left hand feels as a Gate to the music flow, a tube from unwritten, unborn music to a solid world of realized processes.

It was a moment I didn`t remember the true thones to the strings. I made a wrong tuning the first time (it sounded beautiful anyway) and then tryed to manage it with internet tuning.

I feel this is the time to be back to music. It was hard not to listen the unwrote music, than it was not easy to listen it back. I still have small skills to music writing and still afraid to do it, afraid to be committed with unborned music, comitted to take it to life. Because the process is not a short-time. May be I do it in future.

To the rest of the day I desided to keep my attempts in order the painting must be the first and the music could take place next. I feel satisfied with the day blessed with new Skype friend, new plans and new-in-old experience, I think my mom wll like as she kept me to violine, I`ll tell it to her next day, next day, actually that day!

Snow… Snow covers everything. About two dayes of snow and now we have a beautiful country of diamonds on white, if you see it tonight. In the morning time this is about 35 cm layer of snow near roads. I feel cold just having a glance through the window. They said the winter will be enourmously cold and snowy, may be it`ll be true. I feel demotivated at the day time because of no colours, no sun, and start to work just near the everning so it seems the winter really comes, good bye everything green, blue, pink, see you in April.