Oh my god,  today is so bright day! I am happpy

Oh my god, from 11:00 AM to 22:00 PM it`s too much! I am deadly tired. The weather is terrible- dark and cold, mixed snow and rain and strong wind. Nevetherless my today students was cute and lectures not bad. I have made 2 pictures during break but didn`t finished it and too much tired now for…. for everything. Tomorrow it will be working day too. Good night!

What’s the last thing you want to do before you die? Or, perhaps, you just have some very important plans?

- Thank you for your question! I`ve just thinked about it, about my plans etc. You will be surprised…
It`s enough  of things I do everyday. My days are complete of activity, from painting to creating the system of self-help, from  writing to making lectures. So I feel I do anything in right time and earn a freedom in last moment to go to the sea and seat on the rocks on my hidden place, feel how the rocks growth and the green sea shining.
Despite of all as my last thing I want do nothing. Only feel and sit is silence, listening a nature music in presence of god and be prepared to ultimate freedom.

Hopes I will be able to do it in right time

Yesterday it was my happy day. Chinese calls it "A full sleeves of happiness" and it`s an exellent description of my feelings yesterday and today. My lectures was cancelled and I suddenly had a full day for myself. Wow!!! I called to a shop for painters and was lucky to found a rare things - special brushes ant kit for sketches.

The shop was far from my home so I went to the metro and made a picture in my travel sketch-complect with Derwent Aqua-pencils (you can see it on the picture). I saw several kind old ledies (may be from England or US) from a tourist group; they changed the metro lone the same way I did it and at the fial I present the picture to one of them. It is a special feelind to do such things spontaniously, a kind of meditation. Hopes she likes the picture, anyway it was something I did in metro exactly ht time we met each other.

One hour before I gaines the shop and found much more I expected. So I bought everything and bless my credit card 

Among amazing tools was the great book of modern aquarel technigues, I love it from the first view. Several aqua-brushes made me feel satisfied and confident in future because I like to have a reserve tools for the case my working tool may be lost of broken. It`s a part of my character, may be I inherited it from total deficiency period (damn it!) of Soviet life. Also I bought 2 big size chinese brushes, I have several ideas how to use it in my graphics. In the shop I found a rare small complect of aquarel with water-brush by Kai Sakura company (Japan). Several times I had seen it on sites or pictures, but the first time it was available, so I bought it emmediately! You can see that kavai small kit  over my travel sketch-complect with Derwent Aqua-pencils on the picture. So nice thing with both sharm and funktionality make me exciting!

And after all it was a small present to myself . After the visit to my mother I was back home and started to paint.  It was another happiness. So you can see how a little things produce a big feelings, and how easy to be happy sometimes!

At the end this sky I see from my window!

I used to live in Siberia for 11 years - from 4 to 17, and then it was cold weather more then 8 months per year in cities I lived next 15 years. But the true is I hardly endure cold weather all of my life! Not only psychologically. All cells of my body rebell againt it! Especially dark and cold wind - it kills me and makes body depression every year. Yes, this is a kind of pleasure to wear warm socks in the everning… from time to time, or for special mood. But it is disgasting for me to be forced to use it. My body feel it as a kind of compulsion to the nature. I hate layers of heavy clothes covers my body as leaves of a cabbage. I always desire to drop it and physically hate to dress in pull-over at home. Even such dresses is beautiful, comfortable and stylish I force myself to suffer it and carefully protect my soul from annoyance and irritation, as protect from illnesses.

This year it`s strange weather in Moscow. I easily lived out the Great Smoke and The Great Heat (+41 degree) in August. It was expected to have a warm long automn, but today is +10 only. My body is shocked by it, I feel myself fell inside the body, shriveled, wanted to sleep all dark time. The warm is over, good bye!
All cells of my body are thirsting for sun, green grass I could lie and starring to heaven, and of couse I desire a sea. May be not for swimming, but even to see it every day would be great… My friends - habitants of the warm islands - said this is too much cold in winter for swimming. But it is not a long time, may be 1-2 months of a bit more cold winds and dark sky…  it`s not a problem if you compare it with 9 months. 
9 months!!! Such perspective of dark and cold made me crazy. I have to think about something else otherwise…
The only thing helps is my plans for creation, my paintings, graphics and books. As it will be cold outside I will stay at home and deducate all of my time to work. And I can nvite my friends to share with them a happy moments of creativity and a cup of chinese Oolong tea.

Yesterday I saw several series of the great Indian epos "Mahabharata" and suddenly realized that somewhere deeply inside I am still dreaming about a flute. My experience with block-fluite was terrible, it was from plastic and I can`t feel it. Indian flute bansuri is from bamboo and today I have met the master, who make it here in Moscow. One of his bansuri in the picture:

I have found him by his blog http://bambooway-ru.livejournal.com  and found his way of understanding music, musical instruments and Zen right. I have visited his school Zentaku in one of tea houses of Moscow today morning. So I desided to apply for bansuri to him. As he said it needs a time to feel what bamboo matherial will be the best for that kind of flute. I want my bansuri small and dark as at the picture. Hopes I will receive it soon and try to learn it. 

Actually I want to have small musical instrument to carry it with me in adventurres. It will be the great  enjoyment to play flute on the seashore, to feel how music and sea sounds interlaces and how it connectes with moon and trees and my mood too. Hopes our winter - so long, too much long for me! - would be shorted with bansuri. I will try it by intuition and play improvisations. Anyway I listen music inside so it will be great to play it in reaity.
 

I love it. Satin stitch emboidery in chinese style makes me silent and relax. A like cotton threads more then all.

I created several designes of clothes and wrote several books about satin stitch embroidery. My free course you can download hee http://www.ann-mary.com/freebies.shtml 

This is my satin stitch with viscose threads:

I know batik technigues and do something like that from time to time. It will be a decoration for interior, hopes i will finish several in nearest future.

It was one of the the hardest  education in my life - to learn knitting.  However crotchet crafts was easy and soft. Then I combine all technigues in one design!

You can see a lot of my works on Ravelery  http://www.ravelry.com/projects/ANNAmain , and that winter I did 5 things (currently unfinished because of long sleeves). Wow, I have to finish it before september but lazy. It is cazy even to me to knit wanm sveaters in so hot summer .